This was posted by the shooter, Matthew Murray, about a month ago:
Drowning in despair
you raped the soul from the child in me……..
Crying all alone
The tears flowing down my face in a beautiful stream
The lovely misery and lonely darkness surrounding me
As I see everyone going on with their meaningless vain fake lives
All the posers and wannabes
All the abusers
Crying all alone
High off the pain and darkness
Seeing so many fakers hating me
So many of my friends who have abandoned me
So many spiritual pretenders who failed to help me.
I’m your nightmares come true
You think you can punish me but you fail to see
That I’ve lived through a thousand nightmares
And all your worst Christian fears are coming true
Walking down these hallways
Of mirrors and sadness seeing myself
Crying all alone as everyone takes their turn
Raping all that I am
Cutting myself killing this pain
Someone help me please
I can’t get out and I am slowly dying
Come and sing with me
This beautiful song of sadness and misery
Crying awash in crimson
Come and sing this song…
As we die and leave this miserable life behind
Can you not see the elegant beauty?
Rays of light like gold silk flowing throughout this place
Beautiful tears of crimson streaming down our bodies
Our work is done here, we’re going home
Let us fly away into the dying sunset
Can you not hear this beautiful song?
As all the pain fades away
Taking your last breath
As the blood and pain drains
To die in their misery and hypocrisy
We’re going home to a beautiful place far away from here
It’s all in your head……it’s all in my head…..
I tried…you lied to me for so long…..
Everywhere I go there’s a sense of it…….
freak on my antics and give me a choice
Doesn’t matter if I give a @#%$….. it’s @#%$ that you gave me